1. 2 years ago 

   Friendship

   When you look at friendship? What is that you really consider in it? Exactly, what is it so crucial in this person that you would consider a friendship as a relation. To what category do you put this friend in? Why do you do so? What are friends? Companions? People who stick beside you. Or some hi-bye friends you are talking about?

   Here, I’m talking about a friendship, a sistership, a bond, an affinty that has all been gone. Gone? Why bring them up? Simply because they’ve played quite a part in my life.

   People always say, friends come and go. How many friends exactly have walked out in my life. Why is it we can become total strangers walking pass each other when we use to do everything under the sun together?

   You may have a very close friend now, but how can you predict you would stay the same for long?

   Four girls, one heart. That used to be what we are known for. We have withstand all weathers, good and bad so as to be together. Friendship itself, it made us all four so strong. For countless consecutive days and night, we never left each other for a minute. One for all, all for one. We were all together no matter what.

   We developed every sense of true friendship, we were persistent in hold this affinity for life. We reassured ourselves noone can bring us down.

   But today, look at our pathetic destiny. We each are trying to get at each other being so critic and spectic to revealing one’s negative side so as to feel more perfected within this foursome. Why this rivalry? Why?

   Friends come and go, simple as it sounds. A fact that we should have all already accepted. When this topic appears in my mind, I try very hard to relate this in a real optimistic manner. But why is it really so hard to forgo each other’s doings? Why must we bear so much grudge and hatred towards each other yet put up a front for each other?

   This situation, it really is pathetic and unbearable. I simply am loss at words, I don’t know how to make of this situation.

   This phrase “Friends come and go”. But Cindy completed it with, “Friends come and go, but I don’t want you to go”. We used to be forbidded to being together due to so many reasons that I was forced to leave this group and this foursome was supposed to vanish. Yet, you sweet hearts melted my cold blooded heart which was about to leave. How was I supposed to leave without you girls?

   I thought no one was able to take away this bond, true enough. No one but ourselves. No matter how hard we assured ourselves eternity that no one can bring us down. No one is bringing us down except ourselves.

   Till today, some of you may think it is real pathetic to be considering the past we had to stick the remains together. But let memories be, I may have lost a friend or too, but I’d still be me.

   A few days ago, we four finally sat down for dinner. I then asked when was the last time we sat together and we would be able to eat together again. Why has it even becamse so hard for us to even sit together to eat when we use to share a bowl of laksa. Who’d expected that very time I asked, would be the last time I ever get to ask.

   Who has regards for this sistership anyway. Pathetic me, why should I be so pondering so much. Perhaps I was just deep in my thoughts. But these friends, let them go.

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